emotional roller coaster

seat belts fastened;
up, up, up...
whee~ im gg down!!
excitement, anticipation.
stressed, nervous.
happiness, elation.
bored, stone.
gratitude, warmth..
disppointment, helplessness.
inferiority complexes, insanity.
vulgarity, materialism..
back-stabbing, catfights.
emo, confused, lost.
well, it's the end of the emtional roller coaster ride.

why do the lows always outweigh the highs? that's because of physics. it's a law; a fact - an unchangeable fact. we always start off high, don't we? but we can never go back to the beginning. the start of it all. we can only go down, down.. and further down. on the way, we experience more, and this opens our eyes to the world once unknown to us. when all of it comes to a final stop, we look back and remember the initial feelings. and sometimes, we wonder: after all this time, are we only capable of achieving this? why did we start off excited, yet end up lost?
i suppose, it's all part of life, isn't it?
and this, should be a transition phase. just like how we're scared of the violent tossings up thr, our timid souls move on to other games in the amusemnt park, not daring to put ourselves to the test of The Roller Coaster. Merry-Go-Rounds are so safe, aren't they? why subject ourselves to two-faced torture when we can just have simple-minded things?  2 more months, and we'll be on our way to challenge The Roller Coaster again. i seriously hope lubricants are added this time(: that should mean more highs right? 4 years, and i am still unaccustomed. will 2 months work? i had shoulders to lean on on my 4-year ride. what about the upcoming one?
to go to greater heights, we have to experience greater lows and speeds, dont we?

the emotional roller coaster ride...


insaeng... chega cheongmal nomu himdeulreoyo!



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[mood song: sarangin geojyo by heo yeong saeng & the name i loved by SHINee ]
sarangin geojyo:
Love of my life… ch’eo-eummannattdeon nal
keudaeui parkeun misoreul boattjyo
love is my life utdeon keudaeneun nawa eoneusae kakkaweojingeojyo

urin hangsang manheun sigandeuleul
hamkke hamyeonseo seororeul yaegi haesseottjyo
ijeseoya kieokeun marhaeyo
keudaewa haettdeon sigandeul naegen haengbokirago

Can you feel my love for you… sarangin geojyo
imi keudae sarangharsu eoptneun
pogo sip’eoyo soksagideut oech’yeobojiman eodiittjyo keudaeneun

nan keudaeman boyeoyo naega ireohke aeweonhago ittneunde
o keudaeneun eodilbonayo kyeot’e naega ittjyo
ijeneun saranghandago marhalsudo eoptkettjyo

Can you feel my love for you… sarangin geojyo
imi keudae sarangharsu eoptneun
pogo sip’eoyo soksagideut oech’yeobojiman eodiittjyo keudaeneun

bogo sip’dago saranghantago kip’eunmamsoge keudaegaisseoyo
keureon saranggwaneun tareun ttodareun sarangboda
kip’eun keudae saenggake mami ap’ayo
tuson moayo keudaega bogop’eulttaen